Weekend Update: I’m pooped.
I’m just so tired these days, and I don’t know why. I’ve been feeling ready for bed by 9pm every night. Is it Daylight Savings making the evenings darker? Is it my Implanon screwing with my moods? I just want to feel peppy and energised again. I want to feel engaged and passionate about my hobbies. Right now I’m going through the motions a little bit. I don’t think I’m depressed or anything; I’m still technically Getting Shit Done. I guess I’m just a little blue, is all.
I spent most of Friday night getting ready for the Guild meeting on Saturday. In addition to my normal duties as Convenor, I also had to give a presentation on “Joining, Weaving and Splicing” (with help from Tia) and then reprise my “Welcome to the Knitternet” presentation for some guests from the Southern Highlands. It was our biggest meeting yet – 47 people! – yet also one of the smoothest and best. I’m actually really proud of that. That took up most of the day, and after a quick beer with Amy, I headed home to chill out. (The Snook spent all day Saturday at work, as his team is working to meet a major deadline.) So I had dinner, watched some Gossip Girl, and went to bed.
This morning I got up early for my planned 19km run. (That’s 12 miles!) It took me just over 2.5 hours to complete. It was a hot day, and my biggest problem was staying hydrated on the hills. My foot injury wasn’t an issue at all, which was nice. I feel like I should feel more pumped up about the accomplishment, but really, I just got ‘er done. As soon as I got home, I had to quickly shower before Miss Fee and JP arrived. The three of us were heading off to a very special baby shower for Rose Red. There were loads of bloggers there: her and her and her and her and her and many more… We had sausage rolls and nibbles and cake and champagne. We knitted and chatted. We cheered as Jane opened all her pressies. It was fun! Afterwards I came home and pretty much collapsed. I just can’t muster up the energy to DO anything. I want to record a podcast. I want to start a new knitting project. I want to clean the kitchen. I want to plan a trip to the U.S. I just feel a little… stuck. How do I get unstuck?
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WOW what a weekend – and it was so much fun.
Humbly I suggest that you think about what you want to do and then let it happen when it happens. Look back at how much you have been doing!! Be kind on yourself
You have been doing an amazing amount of ‘stuff’ lately go easy on yourself. The whole time change does throw things a little and it is getting noticeably darker and colder, give yourself a week or so to adjust and get plenty of sleep 🙂
i know that feeling. It’s overwhelming. Perhaps stop trying. It sounds like you’re trying to overcome it and maybe you need to just BE a bit?
Great afternoon. So many great people gathered in one place!
Start with the plan to visit the US – remember Harry Potter at Universal and get motivated! We want to see you.
hey, don’t be too hard on yourself! You did complete a 12 mile run (congrats!), which can leave you feeling drained for a day or two. Maybe you just need some more veg out time…at least for a few days. Sounds like you’ve been super busy lately and may just be feeling generally run down and blah, so it’s okay to take a break from knitting and podcasting for a couple of days. Last year, I started making a conscious effort to say no to invitations/activities once in a while, (I used to say yes to everything, even stuff I wasn’t all that excited about, unless I had an actual conflict) and it was a really nice change. Anyways, I hope your bleargh goes away soon 🙂
Everybody’s missing the obvious point here. I have the answer to you feeling tired all the time. Unfortunately its nothing a doc can fix for ya. You can however keep it at bay for a bit with lots of effort but it’s not easy. Want to know what it is? Yep that right, you’re getting older. There is a simple solution to your problem however, just embrace it and accept the fact it doesn’t get any better. I have and look how happy I am now. The preceding announcement has been brought to you be the AARP.
i agree, i think youve been super busy and youve had a few illness/injuries, it might be your body telling you to try and take things easier for a bit. you do HEAPS, more than most people i know! so great to have you at the shower, and your present was totally AWESOME!!
I’ve been thinking about this and you’ve gotten lots of good advice already – it’s ok to just “be”, and not be doing stuff all the time. But if collapsing is stressing you out, then pick one thing to do each day, and just do that, and at the end of the week you’ll have achieved heaps (way more than I ever would in a month. Or even 6 months!)
Thanks everybody… AND DAD. I really think a lot of it is the shorter days. When I leave work and it’s dark out, I just instantly feel so depressed and tired. I don’t know how to feel happy about the onset of winter (even if it is knitting season).
And you’re all right, I DO do a lot! I also feel guilty for all the stuff I’m NOT doing. So even when I veg, I’m preoccupied with how I shouldn’t be. I need to veg without feeling like I should be doing anything else.
Kris, don’t worry about your dad, I’ve hidden his Depends and glasses. You’re NOT old.